Tuesday, September 13, 2011

one full week

I am one full week as a non smoker! YAY!  I never thought I could make it this far.  And now....it is getting easier and easier as the days go by! I have saved over $30 in one week!  that will be $120 in on month!  If Clay sticks with quitting his chew habit....that is another $120 a month!  $240 (give or take) is a VAN payment!  YAY!

Oh how I want a mini Van!  I never thought I would be one to drive one of those things....but wow they look so convenient! But, of course I would want some bells and whistles on in.  Stow and Go seating would be awesome! Remote doors would be a plus too! The dvd player would be nice...but I could get a portable one from the store if need be.  I know what kind I want.  I just need to save up for a good down payment.  That way my payments can be low enough for my liking.

Half tempted to go look on my lunch hour.  But I don't want to rush in to anything. As I tend to do! A LOT!  I want to pick the right one.

well, enough dreaming about a mini van (the thing I always said I would NEVER drive). Back to work...

Monday, September 12, 2011

We survived the lake....barely!

We had a good time.....for the most part.  :)  Fishing....Campfires....boat rides....family time!

It is always fun spending time with family.  My grandma, Mom & Dad, My sister and her family and my Aunt Cindy and Uncle Gary, and us.  Great times. The kids always have a great time playing together. The adults have fun chatting and getting caught up with each other.

The downer of the whole weekend....."WE" forgot the bathroom bag for the whole family!  I say we....as i packed it....but it never made it to the car! WHICH I say is HIS fault....since he was packing the car.  BUT...in the end it did not matter who's fault it was......we had no bathroom stuff.....and that was that.  He did fix it (a little) by running in and getting tooth brushes and deoderant.  BUT, i had no makup up, root booster, hair spray, etc.  It was a baseball cap and no make up for me! The pics are just fabulous! Note my sarcasm!





So...overall......it was a great weekend.  I am pretty sure I was stinky....but owell!  :)  The bugs stayed away!   :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Off to the Lake!

We are off to the Lake with family all weekend.  YAY!  I have never been to this lake/cabin before.  Should be fun!  ALSO, this is day 4 of NO Smoking. :)

I am doing great!  starting to cough a little bit.....but I hear that is normal.  That should last about 2 weeks.  I had another person tell me that it only takes 21 days to quit a habit.  SO, I only have 17 days to go....lol.  I am just wishing to make it one day at a time.

I am going to try and keep my crabbiness in a box this weekend when at the lake.  :)  I am doing pretty good with that.  Sometimes the box cracks open a little bit and snap.  But, I can generally push it back in and lock it back up!  Then go grab a straw to chew on!

I am looking forward to seeing the girls fish.  It should be fun.  I hoping we do not lose any poles in the water (hannah)  ;)  Or anyone FALLING in the water (hannah).  :) 


This is the family's unofficial end of summer.  After this....nothing.  NO plans.  Just normal life of...
Gymnastics on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday
JAM at church on Wenesday evenings
and Girl Scouts twice a month!


Not to mention school...homework....chores....etc!  :)  Is it Christmas break yet!  JUST KIDDING!  I do like the hustle and bustle of kids! :)  I dislike the part about not being able to sit down for supper as a family, as we are running here and there.  I guess this is normal?


~me

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Day 3 - non smoker

Well, it is day 3 of being a non smoker. It does not seem, at this point, that it is going to be nearly as bad as day 2! I am at least talkative today.

I have not even chewed on my straw once! I am not saying I wont use it...I am SURE of that! :)

Speaking of the straw:
Yesterday my kids could not understand why I needed a straw. Why couldn't they have one? Well, my youngest...Hannah...tested the buttons (what is new). She grabbed my straw and ran! I think I turned into a 4 year old with her. Chasing her thru the house screaming "GIVE THAT BACK" She looked at me like i was NUTS! THEN....she stuck it in her mouth! I thought I was going to cry!

I then came back to adulthood......and walked away. Keep in mind i only briefly lost my mind for like 30 seconds....but wow! It was NOT a proud Mommy Moment! :-S

I then looked at myself and can not believe that nicotine/cigarettes have such a hold on me! I can not believe that a THING......not a person.....a THING.....has that much control on me! I am very disappointed in myself for letting the addiction get this far!

Don't get me wrong....I want to go outside right now and light up...but the other part of me says I have come to far to do that and I do NOT want to go thru the 1st 2 days again!

~me

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day 2!

I love all of the encouragement....but, I would much rather you just BE QUIET! :) And I say that in the nicest possible way!

This is day 2 of no smoking! yay me. I mean YAY ME! I wish I would feel that way! Like this was a good thing. My body and brain have not caught up with that thinking yet! I know I know...I will feel better. I will be more healthy. It will be best for not only me, but my girls too. BLAH BLAH BLAH!

I WANT TO SMOKE RIGHT NOW!

No one ever said this was going to be easy. but, WOW! I will continue this adventure....and I will win! But, i will say it is the hardest thing I have done so far! It is not as painful as child labor...but it is still hard!

I do know that I will be happy when my life is not run by nicotine! When can we leave so i can smoke.....i am getting crabby because i need a smoke.....etc. That will feel great. It is just getting to that point!

They say the first week is the worst.....so bare with me for the next 5 days! :)

time to go chew on my straw some more!

baylee